Sa Wakas

 

Tinapos ko na ang walong taon kong relasyon sa aking boyfriend na ngayon ay matatawag ko ng ex. Bakit? Paano? Mahabang kwento. Ang mahalaga, malaya na ako.

 

Sa tingin ko ito na yata ang isa sa pinakamagandang desisyon na nagawa ko sa buhay ko. Sa totoo lang, imbis na bumigat ang pakiramdam ko ay kabaligtaran ang nangyare. Para akong tumae ng madami pagkatapos kong maconstipate ng isang linggo. Ang gaan, ang saya, ang sarap.

Minsan iniisip ko kung pinapaniwala ko lang ang sarili ko na hindi ako nasasaktan, pero hindi e. Hindi talaga. Siguro kung may lungkot man akong nararamdaman, yun ay dahil sinayang ko ang walong taon ng buhay ko sa maling tao.
 

Yun na lang, wala na akong masasabi sa break up na ito. Ayoko siyang isumpa at hilingin sa lahat ng pwersa sa mundo na makapangasawa siya ng panget ngayon.  Baka bukas na.

Madami akong natutunan. Ang pinakamahalagang ay "Dapat ipakilala sa magulang at sa mga kaibigan ang iyong magiging karelasyon. Kasi kung ayaw niya dahil masyado siyang "cool" para makisama at makihalubilo sa mga ibang mahal mo sa buhay, may mali sa kanya."

Be You

So at first I thought my life was a waste and that there is no hope for me because I wanted to travel but my job is not the traveling kind of job, but then I was introduced to Chyng Reyes. An ECE who also works in the IT industry but still manages to travel to different parts of the country and the world. And because of her, my Dora The Exploradora hopes was redeemed.

Then, I came across this very informative website of Foreclosure Philippines and I have been reading it for these past few days. I learned how attainable it is to be a real estate investor if only one will put an effort in it. Jay Castillo is the one who runs that awesome website and he gives pretty good tips for noobs. Afterwards, I realized that I also want to invest in real estate and that same feeling of dismay showed itself to me again because I felt like I am doing the job that is not made for the things I like and the things that I have knowledge of. Then, I stumbled at one of his comments in his articles saying he was an I.T. graduate. Wow. 

Another person from my industry who is doing what he wants to do even if his specialization in college has nothing to do with it.

Lesson of the Story:

Do not let your past define your future, just do what you want to do, NOW.

Uninvincible

I thought I was invincible, but it turned out that a mosquito bite could knock me down. Well, the doctors didn't really confirm it was Dengue and the Rapid Dengue test results are negative but all of the symptoms I experienced pointed to that pesky mosquito. 

I got sick for 7 days, 2 of which was spent within the four walls of a hospital. On the first day, my fever was so bad that I couldn't even get up without being too dizzy and fall down again. I even asked my father to fetch me in my apartment so I could eat and come home to our province so someone could take care of me. I went to the nearby Medicard Center on the second day and the doctor doesn't even believe that I was sick because my temperature became normal after the sponge bath. The CBC showed that my segmenters are above the normal count so the doctor advised me to take some Co-amoxiclav. The on and off flu went on for the next days. I went to a second doctor (now in Bulacan) on the third day, this doctor had me take the Rapid Dengue test and another set of CBC, platelet count. The Rapid Dengue test showed that I am negative of Dengue but the CBC showed my decreased platelet count from 204 to 187. That and other bad things about my hematocrit and blah. On the 4th day, I thought I was fully recovered but I still revisited my doctor as per everyone's advice. He saw the results of the previous test and advised me to be confined to the hospital. I refused because I feel ok (thinking I am invincible). This is probably one of the worst decisions in my life because right after I got home, the persistent high fever started. At this point I am starting to channel Morrie (from Tuesdays with Morrie) and I am already praying and telling Him that let his will be done on me. The second doctor had me take the Thypidot test and another CBC for the fifth day. I am negative of Typhoid but my platelet count became 133 which is below normal. Even if I refused (me still thinking I am invincible), my parents decided to get me admitted to a hospital. I checked in Meycauayan Doctors Hospital Suite Room B last July 21. The first time I was ever admitted to a medical facility. I stayed there for 2 days. After couple of more lab tests, my platelets are back to normal and my third doctor with an LV bag advised me that I could go home already. And that was my week long battle with this viral blood infection that hit me.

If the sickness doesn't kill me, the helplessness that the dextrose gives and the over thinking that boredom allows will. I never want to be hospitalized ever ever again. 

And as I always do, I learned a couple of things with this experience (from my over thinking in the hospital).

Life is short. We should always do what makes us happy. Enjoy life NOW.  

Stop saving too much for the future, I couldn't enjoy all those money when I am dead.

No matter how much you eat right and exercise, if it is your time, it is your time. 

We should learn to appreciate everything in our life.

Your family will always be there for you during the bad times, so you should celebrate with them during the good times.

5 Regrets in the Death Bed

So according to a nurse that worked in palliative care (specialized medical care for people with serious illnesses as per Wikipedia) these are the 5 most common regrets people realize in their death bed.

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.
3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.
4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

BOOM! I am guilty of all 5. These regrets pretty much summarizes the goal of this blog. So when that fatal day comes, I would have no or just little regrets.

I am sure these regrets doesn't mean that we should just quit our job tomorrow and go cray cray out in the real world. Being unemployed and homeless is not fun. But I do believe these five should inspire us to gradually break away from the things that makes us unhappy.That each day, little by little, we should make an effort to "live a happier life". No, not one drastic change but a step by step transition.


SOURCE: Nurse reveals the top 5 regrets people make on their deathbed

P.S. I  have an appointment with John Robert Powers Alabang tomorrow to work on regret number 3.